SELLING^^

Hey guys I'm selling my baggu bags! *does happy dance* I got tired of the colour so i decided to sell them and get some cash too :)

I'm so sorry for the extremely blur and bad lighting photos, if you're interested, e-mail me at mejune15@hotmail.com or tweet me -> 

@joykukumazlan  

If you're from the same school as me, you can see me carrying my grey baggu in real life :) Selling both the bagpack and the duckbag at $30 :) My duckbag is in good condition, the colour has not faded and it looks brand new :) email, tweet, if you know me personally text me for any queries :)

"I just like ordinary things" -Andy Warhol

Went to the art and science museum on sunday to view the Andy Warhol museum with gwen and joslin! :) The museum is fascinating. His works are truly amazing. And i really loved all his quirky and eccentric quotes, they're mind-blowing. The way he portrays such ordinary things into a whole new level is extraordinary. We were amazed by how his unfinished paintings were still awed and loved by many. And we were envious of the screen print they had at the museum, if we had one of those our layouts would be a breeze. 

My mind was having multiple revelations each time i fixed my eyes on his works, my mind teemed with ideas and i started to think that originality these days are losing its essence. This weekend made me reflect a whole lot. My friend talked me into living life the way i want  and to not be affected by expectations of others. Hey, I don't live to please their expectations. I never once thought of living to be happy. I was always thinking of ways to get all my work done and to make sure all expectations are met. Maybe, just maybe, its time for me to live as free as my hair. To do the things i like and to be actually, genuinely contented about it.

This is just one of the few revelations i had, there's more but if i type each word out, you guys would probably need some caffeine to keep you awake. 

Gave school a miss today (i needed a getaway so so bad) and i'm heading back with a clearer mind, i hope :)

i should stay away from the devils

It was a gruesome 1 week 'holiday'. I won't even consider it as a holiday since my existence in school is known every single day and i did not have time for myself at all. Didn't even reflect on term 1 :( So adding on to the frequent trips to school, I had to complete all my school work and art. I probably neglected my other subjects and drew more attention to art and i managed to complete my boards.

The process of doing all the boards was tiring. I was mentally challenged into sitting down for hours sketching perpetually and forced to think of creative ideas for my final work. The teachers kept harping on the need for me to develop my ideas into a larger scale. They kept throwing ideas at me and my mind was teeming with gory shit which i couldn't showcase since it'll freak their minds out. I could feel my body frozen and i thought my legs were gonna melt, it was that nerve-wrecking. By the end of the consultation, i literally could feel my heart in my brain. The thumping noise and tension building up. I actually thought I was on the verge of erupting. 

Went back to thinking of another final layout which i have to redo and add on to my research :( I really love art, but the amount of work i have to do is quite (okay maybe a whole lot) intimidating. But at least i got 1 compliment! :) They said my sketches were interesting :) I've got a slight idea on what my final layout would be so i'll probably start working on that soon but first i gotta finish up my holiday homework. Good luck to me.

OH AND YES, I DID NOT SELF HARM, I WOULD NEVER DO THAT. I WAS JUST PLAYING WITH EXCESS PAINT. 

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stray cats- om 

Good morning sunshine, the earth says hello. What bullshit, its currently 1035pm and i feel oh so shag. Back to the nunnery again tomorrow :( Oh how i abhor hauling myself to that prison-like area. Its beyond mundane. Anyway, i did some re-arrangements in my room. It has this 'new' feeling. Like i've been brought away to a wonderland filled with unprecedented emotions and thrills. Maybe i might be over thinking, but you get the drift.

I recently found my ukelele from my primary school days. It probably enjoyed its moments of solitude since i was only able to find it 5 years later. Wow. 

Anyway, i have not started on any homework excluding art. Math right now is probably my weakest subject yet i'm not doing anything about it. A part of me expects to fail yet another part of me despises the fact of having an E8/D7/F9 on my report book. I'll start soon, maybe today *cross fingers*

I just spent an hour or so on research for my artist reference, it almost killed me and i currently am having difficulty sending emails. My computer is having some love-hate issues ugh :( Whatever it is, i hope i'll be able to send this friggin ass email and start on some school work before closing this day. Goodnight guys :)

there is no appreciation

used charcoal for this particular eye. i'll probably use this sketch for my art project but i'm not sure how i'll annotate this :( and it has to have a connection with segmented #sigh 

i'm currently in the midst of acquiring the means and techniques of how to draw lashes and hair. This is my second attempt of drawing lashes, they seem mediocre. Not pleased or overjoyed, its seemingly satisfactory. On the other hand, drawing hair is one tough feat for me. It comes out atrocious. It has no form whatsoever and it looks like a bundle of uncivilized lines.  

Its the march holidays now and it doesn't seem like a holiday since i'll be going back to school everyfreakingday :( whats the point of calling it a holiday. Oh and yes, my mom keeps nagging and bragging at me as to why i painted my nails. DUDE, ITS A HOLIDAY!? i dont give a fuck if i have to go back to school, i'm still painting my nails and its in nude guys. NUDEEEEE. 

She keeps pestering and giving me those useless lectures. Firstly, i'm already doing the chores. I dont complain when i wash the toilet every sunday neither do i complain when i have to do my work or sweep/mop the floor. Secondly, I'm staying at home because you tell me so. Do i complain? no. When i stay at home you complain to me instead. Seriously mom. And lastly, i'm sacrificing so much for your sake but all you do is throw them back at me. Can you appreciate the things i do? for once.

Peace out homies. I'm done for the day.

pit-a-pat a raindrop

I am tired. No, tired is an understatement right now. I'm debilitated, worn-out, drained, tensed, well basically i feel like i've lost all my energy and i'm languishing into space. I've got more than a handful of shithole work to do and i'm barely making through each day. I've got tons of tests, quizzes and all that jazz coming up and i can't study with all the distractions around me. But usually i'll just fall asleep and by the time i wake up (which is preferably around 12ish ), my eyes refuse to cooperate with me to do my assignments and at least study afew pages of my notes. Art too is another handful :(

So my class is playing this angel and mortal game and i'm in love with my angel. Her small notes make me smile and i immediately beam with excitement whenever i receive her note. So whoever my angel is, i really appreciate all the notes you gave me :)

I've got a bio quiz tomorrow and i am gonna study for it. YES I AM. I do not intend to fail another one of my tests since i've already failed both my maths. Horrifying results. So yup, love you guys and i'm so sorry for not blogging much these days :(