red gumdrops

Allison Harvard(@alliharvard) - So kawaii + vogue at the same time. Her eccentric look is beyond beautiful and i really love how her photos are so quirky yet sophisticated. Such an inspiration and it'll be a dream to meet her \^^o^^/

Right now, i'd highly think i look like a puffer fish. My face, eyes, nose, lips cheeks are swollen and i feel like i've just fought a battle between my nose and my throat. I look and feel numb and nothing seems comforting to me. Not even a tub of good ol' ice cream or the feeling of being wrapped up under layers of  blankets. I feel so weak and fragile i wish i could just sleep in and feel nothing, nothing at all.

CNY 2012

HAPPY CNY GUYS! I have to admit i'm alil' late on this one but nevertheless, hope everyone had fun! So, thing is, I was coerced by my mom to wear bright colours and this top from om was considered bright and hence, i had to wear it. But she was utterly disappointed by the black a-line skirt. sigh TT_TT" IN THE END, I still went visiting looking like a black and red fire cracker. 

 and please excuse my erratic expression in the last photograph. I look constipated for some reason :( oh and yes! i've got new shoes for the new year \^^o^^/ paired it with my sister's christmas gift. kawaii^^

giselle: 20/01/12

peter pan top, om burgundy maxi skirt, f21 rings, editors market

Went for giselle at the esplanade on the 20th of january with my fellow dancers! :) it was definitely a night to remember since we were late for the performance and were coerced to wait outside the auditorium till the intermission. We had to watch the performance through this puny television placed outside and we could barely see any dancers. It was indeed an evident memory.

All in all, it was a great performance; well executed choreography and a perfect atmosphere. Personally love all the individual solos and the male dancers' jete's. Well extended and controlled.  Didn't quite get the story line though and the abrupt halt and transition of the music was alil' wonky but overall, i really enjoyed my time watching the performance. Some parts really took my breath away :) 

OH AND I WOULD LIKE TO CREDIT CHLOE (@FEEDmeFOODnow) FOR THE PHOTOS :) love you and everyone else to bits :)

masks ain't gonna help no more

Just a few pictures/gifs on my tumblr. Decided to share to this here since its such a relevant topic to life right now. Lets just face the fact that i'm some coward who dislikes the fact of people judging me and i'm honestly afraid to dig into the minds of airheaded, egoistic imbeciles. Don't even get the idea why i'm so afraid of their opinions. But i guess its because people will start labeling you when they don't even know you. 

I mean, c'mon, is it really necessary to be filled with pretense and superficiality when trying to fit in? Aren't you tired of pretending and putting up a show that's a total opposite of what you're truly feeling? 

just a piece of my mind. please, NO JUDGING?

deep darkest hour

Words of constant degrading rubbish are pouring out of my parents mouths right now and i have no idea why i'm blogging, just felt like i had a whole lot of shit weighing me down and i just had a sense of urgency to blog.

We're merely dipping into the 3rd week of school and it seems like i'm getting less productive as each passing day. Sleeping at 2 seems like a total norm nowadays since i've got an interminable pile of homework to be completed. My puny brain can't fathom any A math rubbish and i'm behind time for literature.

I'm suppose to have completed the whole book by now but where am i? OH I'M ONLY AT THE FIRST CHAPTER. amusing ain't it? Dance is so pressurizing, oh gawd i feel like shredding myself into a million pieces each time i'm corrected. I'm cool with it, really. But its just getting so long and draggy, it feels like a millenia since i've heard a compliment and now i can't seem to openly receive a compliment.

My brain and physical composure is totally worned out by school itself and in all honesty, i've got no clue how to carry on.

hiding behind closed doors

Went down to bugis yesterday to run some errands and this is what i wore! Idled around the street and i realised i need new shoes. Firstly, i need new shoes for the coming chinese new year and secondly, i need new shoes for daily wear. I currently despise my current meager shoe collection. It doesn't relatively match with anything i wear and it gets on my nerves sometimes >_*

Since cny is coming, i'm gonna save some and spend the rest on new shoes kekeke ^^o^^ 

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Steaming some mantous for myself now cuz my stomach's calling for some food. I can't help but constantly feed this highly incompetent stomach of mine /sigh. But there'll be dance next week and i hope that'll help lose some weight. cross fingers! :)

#tgif #friday13th

Its Friday the 13th today and oh was it insane. I didn't really felt the pinch of friday the 13th till lunch came.

Firstly, i slipped and fell due to the slippery floor, such an embarrassment. Found my escape within the arms of my friend. Next, I nudged my friend who was apparently carrying a cup of milo. The cup of milo was probably having a party and decided to leave her grasp. It smashed on the floor and it was just a mess of milo.

My day was filled with embarrassing slapsticks TToTT goodness, and i never thought it would happen, such a surprise considering today is friday the 13th.

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Anyway, i've been trawling through g-market and other local online stores to emancipate myself from school. Bookmarked a dozen pages and i cant wait to go through each one of them! It puts me in a state of epic euphoria, of course in my own little mind ^^0^^ Lastly, #tgif i need my sleep. School has been raping me of my dearest sleep and i can't wait to have my mermaid moment on my bed :*

mirrors lie

Dance audition was held today and i went in thinking it'll be one of those test-and-go auditions but it turned into something different. This petite girl dashed out of the dance studio crying knowing she didn't make the cut. Coincidentally, i was standing by the door and noticed her weeping and a whole bunch of her friends crowding around her. I ran towards her and gave her a long tight hug and some words of encouragement and advice . She needed it, she must have felt dejected, so useless and lost. Cuz she probably relied so much on dance to get through her secondary life.

Her inevitable passion was beaming in her eyes even while crying and she seemed so immersed in dance. But oh dammit, i didn't get her name and her image of her face is hazy in my mind. 

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I just had a revelation, it was nostalgic. Its weird cuz i see so much of myself in her, an amount i never imagined i would. And i really hope she gets into dance even if she has to try means and ways :)

hi sofia

clearly i took this while on the phone with you~



i miss you! have a good time doing homework and enjoy da blog headerzzzz
xoxojodie

craving souls

This is not even one third done, just a mere sketch of my current favourite thing, RIBBONS/BOWS \(^^o^^)/  these kawaii little things somehow brighten up my day whenever my eyes collide with these dainty little bows. Which is the main reason why i add a bow onto my bag everyday.

 Visiting the nunnery ever single day is such a mundane act to do. I literally have to saunter my way to school with the most nonchalant expression, lugging my bag filled with burden. Adding on to that, i'm always late and rushing in the morning is not always the most fashionable or trendy way to get to school.

I have a teeming amount of homework to accomplish and i'm already lagging behind T_T" I'm thinking of dropping one of my subjects since the amount of subjects I'm currently studying might just jeopardize my chances of doing well. Since i already know what i wanna do, i should find the best way to achieve good grades, shouldn't I?

lets just all be owls

School has started and i'm already sick and tired of everything thats happening. The transition from sec 2 to sec 3 is perturbing me, with all the new rules and all that jazz. I personally dislike the evident segregation between the third and forth level classes and the consistent repetition of the word 'expectations' ugh.

I AM UTTERLY ANNOYED, VEXED AND STRESSED OUT WITH ALL THE EXPECTATIONS.

anyway, i'm still getting used to everything and it takes time. right now i'm just slogging myself to the study table, trying to keep my eyes awake and i have attained visible eye bags TToTT There's so much going on and its only the third day of school :( oh well, i should have known :(

failure seems to be on this side

i am currently craving for macs fries. the ones i had today were soggy and the majority of them were as short as my little pinky, not satisfies at all. my tummy has been craving for them since a millenia but i was utterly dissapointed by the ones i had to day.

 anyway, i promised a look, so here it is! a simple peter pan top and i re discovered this pair of brown woolen pants. folded the bottom a little cuz it was too long, just a simple yet sophisticated look :) 

let it be

HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS! promise a look soon alright! :)