delusional

The syf exhibition at lasalle preferably 2 weeks ago :) couldn't upload the photos cuz of common tests and what nots so here they are :) btw, all the artworks were truly amazing :)

Gave school a miss today cuz my tummy and head says so. I've been having on off, mild gastrics and my head's been having throbbing migraines. It hurts so bad i swear. Nevertheless, i'll be heading back to school tomorrow without my baggu. Decided to wash my baggu since its getting quite unsightly so i'm switching back to jansport! It seems like every second half of the year i'll always switch back to my jansport ever since sec 1 oh welllllll

The weather has been nasty these few days, explains why i've been having horrible migraines. Its rare that i'll be down with migraines but i was and still am. I have lots of tasks and asssignments to do but my lazy arse isn't moving :( I'm extremely unproficient in managing my time and thats probably my biggest weakness right now. I tend to rush at the last minute and in the end, i'll presume that i put in much effort when all i did was rush through the last few days/nights. Sigh, i need to learn how to manage my time well and place my priorities at where they should be and not where i want them to be. I can't constantly be nuaing on the bed the whole day or spend most of my time stuffing myself with food just to make an excuse to start with whatever i have to. Oh gosh, this has got to stop. And i will make it stop in time for eoys.

Failed chem, amath and emath. I'd rather not talk about my scores so lets just leave that as it is. Its too dissapointing to even look at them.

lifeline

hehehe some camwhoring cuz we're just bored and the sister decided to do my eyes though I refused.

school tomorrow is such a turn off and I have not done any work, how unproductive. My weekends were spent at town and thus, no work completed. Since I'm fasting, I shall cage myself in that dull cell to complete all the given tasks. Oh yes, and not gorgetting how there's 2 Mondays this week. Sigh, I despise Monday's period and we all know why.

On the lighter note, I'm glad that common tests are over cuz in all honesty, I worked really hard for it and if I fail, at least I know I tried :) I'll have to work even harder for eoys because I know I can push myself beyond this :)

black and white

I have been enjoying the rain, its rather liberating. Cleared the first week of test, i really do hope I passed all of them apart from math cuz i'm pretty sure it was horrid. I should be studying right now but I can't seem to stop myself from blogging so here i am. The view from my window at night when it rains is so peaceful. I'd open my window though my hands will get drenched. I just love looking out just to clear my mind.

I have so much on my mind right now its hard to piece them back together, i still have to mug for bio, chem and amath this coming week and i have no mood to do so at all. But i've got to push myself cuz i know i'll regret if I don't and I would really love to just work my arse of and save all the regret.

Lit was fine i guess, i'm not too sure myself what I wrote on the paper. Started off a little rough but I guess i got the hang of it after awhile. I can't wait to free myself, i'm so tired, honestly. I just want to cuddle myself in bed on a rainy night and sleep for hours and hours and hours.

inside out

Feeling extremely down today. Horrible day at school, seemed so degrading and just that inferiority feeling inside me. SS was fine apart from the fact that I only stated the differences and neglected the similarities. Art was odd? I went in totally unprepared and just let my creative juices run wild and free. I could only think of creating something abstract since thats the only thing in my opinion, describes me well.

Sometimes, I just don't get why they don't see the efforts I put in. I've been studying and studying and studying my eyeballs out and my brains are constantly left dried by the end of the day. But every time they just gotta pick on me about something minor. Is it really that amusing to you to pick on kids like me? what have I done to get such bullshit from you? So tired from facing this everyday, I wonder when it'll get better.

For now, let me just lock myself up in this suffocating domicile just to prove you arses wrong.

when you're angry with the world

dying from chemisfreakingtry. that is the look on my face when i'm studying chem, literally. please don't judge :) I am only at acids, bases and salts and i'm dying oh goodness. at times like this, I begin to think why I actually dared to take pure chem when I know for myself I'm unable to fathom shit about it. oh well, my sister's not home tonight how will I be able to survive without her help :'(

these few days have been quite rough with me procrastinating to study and just weird and odd happenings. yesterday, my sister and I went to old airport road to get some lao ban tau huey and while queueing, this old, no hmmm probably about 50 years of age totally just pushed me at my ass. where is your manners lady? firstly, I did not even block the way or disrupt your path and you merely just showed your 'power' to me just beacuse you are older than me? oh look here you old little dimwit, thats not how we roll here. just beacause you're older than me doesn't give you any right to push me away and where were you touching!? mind your manners you arsehole, I was kind enough to let you slip away. age doesn't matter bitch, you look agile enough to walk on your own two feet and therefore, I don't even consider you as old. you should seriously mind your manners cause you are fucking rude and you're not bringing any pride or justice to your own name. how pathetic.

let me just empty my thoughts here. I was extremely mad at her behaviour, it disgusts me.

thank god for my tau huey, I was contented with my 2 bowls ^o^ I will mug tonight, I have too. So all you people burning the mignight oil tonight, i'll be awake too :)