flashback

so the year is coming to an end and this will be my last post of the year 2012! 2012 has been ridiculously tough and in all honesty, i would never revisit this year. it did had its pros and cons but the cons definitely outweigh the pros and i'm relief that its ending. However, i am not one bit excited about the coming year and we all know why. i'll have to slog my way, eating shit all the way till november. and i cant wait for all of it to end. 

the holidays are sadly ending in about 2-3 days so i shall talk about how my holidays went. it was actually quite smooth other than the fact that i'm breaking out in rash all over my body and it really is quite unsightly. oh well, other than that, i did spend time with my sister which i'm most grateful about and i think we're closer now though we were already quite close. i'm glad we were able to spend time together cause i rarely see her ever since she graduated. so muah to her if she ever sees this :) 

i dont ever want holidays to end but it sadly does and i gotta gear up for 2013 cause its gonna be one heck of a year. happy new year guys and have a great year ahead. xxx

black and white

donned this navy blue blazer over my white button down, carried my new metallic clutch and brought my new(somewhat) kicks out. went for chloe's musical and it was really enjoyable and I had a great time watching it! especially  love the crazy costumes and hair ^o^ had a good day out today and its been rather long since i had such a day, do i hear the holidays coming to an end already?

getaway- bkk

 

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back from my 4 day trip in bkk and i absolutely hate the fact that i'm back in this miserable island ugh. bkk definitely had its ups and downs but overall it was a true getaway i needed before the preparations for war. i'm indeed contented with the trip and it somewhat reminded me about ocip early this year. reminiscing, reminiscing, reminiscing. leaving you guys with some of the visuals for the past 4 days xxx 

necessity

photographs of my necessities; spike rings from the editors market, michael kors inspired rose gold watch, grey wallet from cambodia and my everyday clutch from h&m. I'm currently packing for bangkok and i must say, i'm a horrible packer. Someone kindly do the honor of teaching me the basic steps of packing? 

Sent the sister off to Korea today, oh how much i'll miss her :( and i hope she's safe at wherever she's at. flight's at 355pm tomorrow and i'm half on half about it. travelling with 4 other people way older than me will definitely be a tough feat but i just gotta hope for the best! xxx see you guys in 4-5 days time!

Gémeaux

"I think of Gemini what comes to mind is the witty, bright and often restless nature of one who needs constant mental stimulation, variety and most important; space and freedom.

The key phrase that best describes the Twins is “I think.” Your mind never stops which can also makes you a bit on the nervous side but at least you are never boring and then again you may not be sticking around very long to become boring. You are like a butterfly flying from flower to flower wanting to meet everyone and learn everything so that no stone is left unturned. Which of course, all this intense curiosity can leave you mentally drained causing you to retreat to recharge that others see as being moody but maybe you are better described as manic and entertaining rather than using that boring adjective of moody to pin on you."

http://www.astro-counseling.com/html/gemini_qualities.html

*heading to bkk this coming monday :)

Rough

My babies have arrived and I'm so excited to wear them out! ^o^
I shall begin to document a piece of my mind here.

I have not blogged much about school, studies etc, cause truth is, I'm scared. In a way, im trying to run away from the things that scare me the most, the things that make me feel my lowest, the things that put me down. I try to get up from all the despair that happened this year, but I end up running away.
I can't draw, I can't do math, I can't do science, I can't keep my balance on straight ground, I have no awareness of time constraint, I'm trying to hide from what's gonna happen in preferably 25 days time. I don't want to dive back in to that realistic realm where I just can't get anything right. I have a stack of sheets on my desk that I have to accomplish in 20 days time and I don't want to do it cause I can't do/answer half of it. I should be studying but why am I not? Cause I don't want to feel that way again. I don't want to face the fact that I have this fucking huge examination to take. I'm scared. I don't know, I'm just really scared.

denial

just afew instagram updates, do follow me on instagram! @joykukumazlan :) finally, after what seems like a millennia, my room is cleared. re-arranged the furniture and got a new drawer to store my art materials, bags etc.
my baby might be arriving in the mail anytime soon now and i'm afraid it might come tomorrow since no soul will be home tomorrow :( on a lighter note, i am elated for it to arrive ^o^ can't wait to put them on ^^ and i'll definitely do an ootd for it :) xxx