when the stars refuse to shine

#ootd my current favourite shirt hehe #ForGodSoLoved :)

Today, my friends and I were merely walking around and decided to pop into the arcade when suddenly, this little wuss stopped us at the entrance because apparently, we are underaged. Since when did arcades have an age limit....? Because I clearly remember myself entering the exact same arcade a year back without any doubts from anyone there. /rage

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Oh yes, I found out my friends are closet muggers and I'm the only lost sheep. Better start mugging like them cuz surrounded by intelligent souls is demoralizing and you'll feel extremely inferior.

School again tomorrow oh goodness. Its only the first week of school and I'm already dreading the coming weeks. How I wish I could be swallowed up by mother nature and wake up when fairytales and happy endings are true because school makes you feels so damn stupid and it drains out every inch of energy I have.

anyway, just gonna leave a piece of my mind here.
don't you get tired of always giving in when people just take it for granted. don't you get tired of always being the one that puts in so much effort just to know no one cares about it all. or when you're just there but no one cares of your existence.

dying flame

First day of school sucked, as expected. Half the time, I was just following people aimlessly thinking what the hell am I doing there when I have an mc. But anyways, I still went to school.

Changed the seating arrangement and now I'm right in front. Oh the joy to be a centremetre away from the view of the teacher, they'll enthusiastically scrutinize every single piece of my work and they won't hesitate to pick on me. How mundane.

Surprisingly, I'm in a mood to study which is rare and unlikely so I'll probably hit the books soon after a nap or some personal time for myself just doing the nonsense that I always do. Sometimes, I just love being alone. Away from people, away from humans. I'd crawl into my bed and start with my delusional magic making hehe. Sigh, my mind becomes over zealous at times like this.

I probably just wasted 2 minutes of your lifetime from reading 3 paragraphs of my bullshit so i'll sign off now then.

light

June holidays are coming to an end and I'm so sorry for not updating! I'm down with flu, fever, cough, sore throat and all that jazz. My ears are blocked and I feel extremely drained of energy. But it was definitely worth it :) So to end this holiday, I'll be writting about the 2 highlights this month.

Firstly,

OCIP :)

I cannot comprehend as to how much I learn from this amazing trip :) It changed me so much and has broadened my pperspective of this world and society. I'm truly blessed to have gon for this trip and I would most definitely go back to siem reap if I had to rewind time. Missing my little dearies so bad and all I want is for them to have a fruitful education :)

Next,

MUSICAL #ForGodSoLoved :)

This musical has been such a memorable journey and i'll never exchange anything with the experience and memories formed during the whole process. Yes, I'm sick now but its all worth it :) My sleepless nights are all worth it because in all honesty, i've never felt so at ease before. I felt closer to God even though I'm not Christian. I respect all religions and now that its over, I just really want to know more about my religion. I feel so blessed and honoured to be part of this amazing production and I have come to learn and get close to people I never knew I would talk to. This journey taught me self descipline, managing my time between studies and rehearsals and I had to coerce myself to study and read through all my notes. I'll definitely miss rehearsals and acting. hehe never actually thought that i'll act ^^ I hope everyone who attended the musical feels more whole and enlighten because for me, this experience is such a life-changing one and I honestly am unable to emphasize more on that :)