sand between my toes and the wind against my hair

yay for nerf guns ^^

bringing my baby along with me :)

the really horrid and confusing list, or maybe its just me

off for cambodiaaaaa

halfway while packing my luggage for cambodia, i got too distracted by the webcam... hehe

I'm so scared in all honesty. I have no idea what to expect when i'm there and i really hope i packed everything in. I always have this sinking feeling whenever i'm flying off. sigh, its a good and bad thing. away from civilisation, pretence, superficiality and how everyone seems so materialistic in the present generation. I really do hope this serves as a getaway from society for awhile and the village might be the rural yet beautiful place for me to clear my mind.

Flight's at 235pm tomorrow, before i forget, #ootd for sleeping tonight is my diy vita dolce moderato shirt, its rather improportionate but thats one of my few fortes :) see you guys in a weeks time, i'm so nervous :(

I really would love to have a revelation there :)

hide me please

#ootd

I was bored and decided to play with the webcam hehe and my old ukelele. sigh, i really believe in the fact that i have no musical inclination at all.

--

Have you lost your way?
Livin' in the shadow of the messes that you made
And so it goes
Everything inside your circle starts to overflow

Take a step before you leap
Into the colors that you seek
You give back what you give away
So don't look back on yesterday

Wanna scream out, no more hiding
Don't be afraid of what's inside
Gonna tell ya you'll be alright
In the aftermath

Anytime anybody pulls you down
Anytime anybody says you're not allowed
Just remember you are not alone
In the aftermath

You feel the weight
Of lies and contradictions that you live with every day
It's not too late
Think of what could be if you rewrite the role you play

Take a step before you leap
Into the colors that you seek
You give back what you give away
So don't look back on yesterday

Wanna scream out, no more hiding
Don't be afraid of what's inside
Gonna tell ya you'll be alright
In the aftermath

Anytime anybody pulls you down
Anytime anybody says you're not allowed
Just remember you are not alone
In the aftermath
In the aftermath

Before you break you have to change your own mind
Take a trip and fall into the pit
Tell a stranger that their view is full

So all you feel is love, love
All you feel is love, love

Wanna scream out, no more hiding
Don't be afraid of what's inside
Wanna tell you you'll be alright
In the aftermath

Wanna scream out
No more hiding
Don't be afraid of what's inside
Gonna tell ya you'll be alright
In the Aftermath

Anytime anybody pulls you down
Anytime anybody says you're not allowed
Just remember you are not alone
In the aftermath

In the aftermath
(Gonna tell ya you'll be alright)
In the aftermath
In the aftermath
Just remember you are not alone
In the aftermath

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I'm probably just a piece of useless waste. I'm horrible at conversing with my parents. I keep everything inside. Maybe I don't show it, i don't know how to show that i wanna do well. I dont want to fail any subjects. I expected to fail and stuff but i loathe the fact that you guys think i'm contented with being the last in class, supposedly having a fucked up attitude etc etc etc. you barely know me and you churn out such eradical notions and ideas which aren't even true. you judge me base on numericals and figures and yes, maybe i get distracted and inattentive in class but I yearn so much to do well. I might not show it but i really wanna do well. so stop telling me your opinions that are haunting me. just keep them to yourself, how much more do you wanna make me feel demoralized? 

when all things fail

Whats in my sketch book for the first half of the year! Its filled with scribbling, rough outlines, messy drawings, AND MANY OUT-OF-PROPORTION SKETCHES :( its a bunch of messy and untidy pencil, pen and charcoal lines, shades and what not. But since its the first term, i'll cut some slack and start improving now :) 

I would love to conclude that today is the last day of term 2 and holidays are starting but I can't say so :( My holidays are packed with dance practices and musical rehearsals :( and its june, my very special month^^ but i'll be so preoccupied with all the school events. Adding on to that, i still have that pathetic excuse of studying for exams and therefore, i'm unable to enjoy myself and i'm coerced to withdraw from the true value of holidays.

Lately, i've been feeling demoralized. Just one of those days when you wanna snug up to bed under your covers reading your favourite book and having a sip of caramel macchiato just to emancipate yourself from the shit happening in this world. BUT NO you wake up every morning and come to realize that nothing has changed but everything is constantly changing. how ironic. 

waking up at 7 tomorrow when everyone else wakes up when their minds tell them to :( sighhhhhh